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Since
A Beautiful Mind
opened, people who loved the movie but know that it is a fictionalized version
of my 1998 biography of Nobel laureate John Nash have been asking me about the
real Nash: How sick was he? How did he recover? How is he now?
A couple of weeks ago,
Nash and I were at a cocktail party at the Institute for Advanced Study in
Princeton. After regaling his listeners with box-office results, Nash joked
that he hoped Universal was doing a better job of keeping its books than
Enron. Watching this 73-year-old gentleman, you’d find it hard to believe that
15 years ago he was so sick that he was haunting the Princeton campus in
mismatched plaids, speaking to no one,
afraid to look anyone in the eye, his front teeth rotted.
In some ways, Nash’s
illness was a classic case of paranoid schizophrenia. Some of his peers were
convinced that the early stages of the illness manifested themselves in
graduate school, but the full-blown symptoms did not erupt until he was 30. In
1959, just as he was about to be promoted to full professor at Massachusetts
Institute of Technology, he told the chairman of a rival department that he
wouldn’t be able to accept an offer because “I am scheduled to become the
emperor of Antarctica.” Convinced that he was “a messianic figure of great but
secret importance,” he frantically scanned
The New York Times for
encoded messages from aliens, and fiddled with radio dials to pick up signals
from space.
At some point, he
began hearing voices. Though he didn’t literally see the figures who were
shouting at him, the voices were as real to him as people on the street. As a
young mathematician, he saw mathematical solutions – nonrational flashes of
intuition – long before he could work out the reasoning. After the delusions
and hallucinations took over, he said, “My ideas about supernatural beings
came to me the same way my mathematical
ideas did. So I took them seriously.”
Nash responded
dramatically to treatments available in the 1960s – crude and sometimes
dangerous as these were. He was hospitalized half a dozen times, always
involuntarily. At Trenton State, where he was incarcerated in 1961, he was
injected with insulin and put into a coma daily for six weeks by physicians
who hoped to shock Nash’s brain back to health. Later he was treated with
antipsychotics such as Stelazine. He described the insulin shock as “torture,”
and blamed Stelazine for making him “foggy” (both true).
Like so many people
who suffer from schizophrenia, Nash did not believe that he was sick. As his
illness deepened, he accused his wife, Alicia, of wanting to lock him away.
Exhausted and depressed, struggling to raise their son, Alicia obtained a
divorce in 1963. In 1965 he moved to Boston, where he hoped to begin his life
afresh. But he stopped taking medication, relapsed and finally wound up living
in Roanoke, Virginia, with his mother. At 40, gray-haired and frail, he saw “a
cadaver almost” when he looked at himself in the mirror. He spent his days
sipping Formosa oolong in his mother’s apartment.

Nash never stopped
pining for Alicia, and she never really let him go. After his mother’s death
in 1970, he wrote to Alicia and begged her to shelter him. Astonishingly, she
agreed. He moved back to Princeton, where students knew him only as the
Phantom of Fine Hall, a mute figure who scribbled weird but witty messages on
blackboards: MAO TSE TUNG’S BAR MITZVAH WAS 13 YEARS, 13 MONTHS AND 13 DAYS
AFTER BREZHNEV’S CIRCUMCISION.
Moviegoers will be
surprised to learn that powerful new drugs such as clozapine played no role in
Nash’s recovery. Another kind of chemistry apparently did, however. Like fewer
than one in 10 individuals who suffer from chronic schizophrenia, Nash
“emerged from irrational thinking ultimately without medicine other than the
natural hormonal changes of aging,” as he later put it. No one knows why a
lucky minority experience a dramatic lessening of symptoms in late middle age.
Even today Nash
sometimes hears the old voices. But now he has learned to ignore them. “It’s
like a continuous process rather than waking up from a dream,” he has said.
Other Nobel laureates fly first class or start charities with their prize
money. For Nash, who is doing research again, the most prized emoluments are
simpler: being able to afford a cup of coffee at Starbucks, getting a driver’s
licence and, most important, providing for his family – including a son who
also suffers from schizophrenia – once more.
“A second take!” he
quipped before kissing Alicia when they remarried last June. “Just like a
movie.”
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